Missed His Arrival

Yesterday afternoon I began having contractions every 15 minutes. They were strong and they hurt. They increased to every four minutes, then to two minutes. I didn’t think Jeremy was going to make it home in time.

In-laws came to keep Owen and my mother left her work to meet us in Dallas.

At first check in, my mid-wife said to try to relax and that I was getting close to hyperventilating. I was nervous. I was 2+ dilated and 75% effaced, but after hours of walking and then resting, the dilation was the same and the contractions went back to every six minutes.

I was very disappointed. I really wanted to come home with the kiddo.

I was given a shot to help me rest, but my body reacted badly. I threw up in the sink because I couldn’t make it to the toilet it and didn’t stop. It was a horrible night.

When I first saw Owen today, he said, “I know the baby didn’t come.”

I am exhausted and sorry this kiddo missed his arrival.